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The brane has decided to bring in the new year with a frustrating day…

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The brane has decided to bring in the new year with a frustrating day in bed and general out-of-it.

Same fun games. Only bright spot being that is now the exception, not the rule. In the Dorm of Doom days, this was normal and, hello, semi-incoherent babbling and the energy to dance but not turn the lights on. If I was back in London, I would be out walking around and impulse buying... if you were there, you'd know and if you weren't ... I don't want to feel like this.

It's why there is an endless black hole where my life - my degree, my friends, people I never met - should have been. Half asleep and always awake, time going wrong and the need to get away and lose myself.

Hurty and high mixing around me. I rock as I type and everything feels warm and blanketty.

Hello, this is buzzy high on headache and a little caffeine*

*because even if it spaces me more, I feel a bit more human. A bad idea because I was doing some pretty dumb stuff and some of it is here to stay. *freaks out and tears up*
  • It's why there is an endless black hole where my life

    Aw. Yeah. I get that. DID and PTSD, pleased to meet you. Just spaces in time and place which should have been my life. *sigh*

    But you're doing good. And you are a fantastic, clever, brilliant writer, and you sent me gifties, so hey: there are high points. :)

    Happy New Year!!!!

    *hugs and warm blankets*

  • I hope you feel better soon. {{{{Hugs}}}}
  • Ugh. I hope you feel better. Oh, the impulse buying when in an altered state, I know all about that...

    Only bright spot being that is now the exception, not the rule.

    That's a damn good bright spot, yeah? *hugs*
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