I really don't think there is much of "me" left in here.
I try to keep the worst parts out of sight because I don't want to scare people, I don't like feeling helpless and I don't want them to feel the same way.
I don't want to tell people that when I went and hid in the garden, I'd already spent some time contemplating an upstairs window and how I needed to get out and
just make it stop, please